FICTION
Turkish Literature / Turkish Fiction
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ANATOLIA
— FLASH FICTION by
Selma Aydin
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As the morning crimson began to peek from behind the mountains, we’d hear first “good mornings” from the roosters. And, those crystal-clear voices, enveloping the entire village, would press the start button on a new day’s life.
While the beauty of the day and its routine bustle slowly took hold of people still drowsy with sleep, but the villagers were forced to set out early due to restless stirring of the animals in the barn. There were no high-stress scrambles like missing the bus or rushing to catch the subway.
Instead of feeling utterly alone in a crowd, the whole village and town were familiar with the same faces; everyone knew each other’s lineage. The order of business was different, of course. At most, you’d go to the field, cut and load wood from the mountain. And then, with panniers on your back, carry fertilizer one day and provisions the next to hoe your land. Also, you’d share the surplus of your harvest with your struggle for bread. Perhaps it wouldn’t pour, but your labor would always yield a steady drip.
With calluses on your hands and black rawhide sandals on your feet, you’d always be yourself. Like a villager… You’d smell the bitter smell of old rubber when you wanted to rest your feet, and you’d say, “My labor smells through and through.” This unique odour would remind you of your identity; of who you were. And, how else they’d recognize you! Your head was held high, and your labor was sacred to you. Yet, you’d suddenly become just a “peasant woman” or a “peasant man” whenever your path led you to the town or city. People measured the dignity of your lineage with your self-sacrifice; the greatest value inherited from your ancestors was your industriousness and honesty.
As the more the sun scorched you from above, the more diligent you were considered compared to others. Since, every hour of the day was of equal value for earning a living. Grandparents, who had dedicated themselves only to work for years and had grown frail, would point you out as someone determined and relentless. If you were a young girl or a young man, you became the most desirable and precious through your work performance. And you would dazzle like those sparkling products in supermarkets that entice their buyers.
Even when suitors came, they would say, “So-and-so’s daughter is very resilient; she can squeeze water out of a stone.” Also, Young men, who could handle their work, would first go as suitors to the most skillful girls. On the contrary, human emotions like love and passion weren’t given much importance in such situations. Of course, there were those who were smitten with each other and risked everything. But grandmothers and grandfathers kept saying that love doesn’t put food on the table. As people aged, they wiped the slate clean — once their own youthful fires had died out, they wanted everyone else’s to die out too. Oh, you people who have already “sifted your flour and hung up your sieve”…
If your cheeks weren’t bright red from the fresh milk, vegetables, and fruit you ate every day, or if the load on your back didn’t exceed a hundred kilos, you weren’t even considered a man. So, you’d to be stubbornly strong, stubbornly healthy, because your worth was measured by how much weight you could carry.
But what about your dreams, your desires to shed your skin — should they be ignored? If you had dreams and hopes for tomorrow, they would say, “So what? Is there a rule that you must reach everything you dream of?” Heaven forbid you think out loud! Indeed, you would instantly be labeled as someone trying to imitate high society. Thus, the fundamental rule was to stretch your feet according to your quilt, and your dreams according to your scale. Likewise there were traditions, regional customs, and many factors drawing boundaries before you.
You could only think of your dreams in secret — the moments you laid your head on the pillow. Surely every village girl has dreamed of the city, but the reality was different. There were vast differences. That’s why a village woman was often looked down upon compared to a city woman. If you weren’t ashamed of the calluses on your hands, and if you could make yourself accepted among those “impoverished urbanites” who thought they knew it all, then perhaps your dreams would amount to something — who knows. This, of course, was a matter of choice.
Sometimes people fail to appreciate what they have. They tend to gravitate toward things far beyond what they possess. We think happiness is behind the mountains when we fail to see what’s right under our noses. You eventually realize that’s not the case over time. You don’t resent being an Anatolian, but you struggle among those who fail to be human. If your dreams are your reason for living—which they are—you knowingly multiply the callouses in your heart.
The roosters crow every morning in your heart, don’t they? Because you know your essence and you don’t deny it. And, you learn not to lament over everything you couldn’t be equal to. Besides, you see how valuable unpolluted, pure emotions are, the happiness of sharing, and most importantly, the value of the sweat on your brow.
So, you stretch your feet neither according to your quilt nor your own scale, but according to your heart. And, you stretch your feet according to your labor; and that is what make you a pure, unadulterated human being.
Where you are born becomes, in a way, an indicator of how you will live. Is resigning to your fate a choice or a matter of survival? To those who long for their village, with love.
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(Self-translation from TURKISH)
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Selma Aydın
Born in 1965 in Zonguldak, Türkiye Cumhuriyeti (Republic of Turkey). Selma Aydın studied her primary, secondary and high education in this city. Also, she is studying Turkish Language and Literature Department of Zonguldak Bülent Ecevit University. With the reflection of the dream world of her childhood and the geography she lived in, she has come to this day in her journey as a writer. Moreover, she started hosting in 1999. In addition, she took and still takes an active part in official and private presentations.
Furthermore, in 2010, Aydın realized another of her dreams with a TV program that she produced and hosted. And, she was the live broadcast guest of several programs on national TV channels. Next, she staged many poetry recitals and concerts consisting of her own works in Zonguldak and surrounding districts. Selma Aydın, who has nearly 100 musical works with lyrics and compositions of her own, had her name written by TRT as a composer with her first composition. She copestone her admiration for the land of her birth with the Zonguldak March she composed. Additionally, the author also learned playing Oud, continuing her music education. And then, at the “Eurasion Poets and Artists” meeting in 2018; as a poet and writer, she was invited to Azerbaijan as a guest.